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A flaw in how society works

I think I finally realized why I hate existance so much. Its the perpetual monotony of it all. We wake up everyday go to work, exercise, eat and sleep.

Everyday. the. same. thing.

It just repeats over and over and when we finally and free of this vicious cycle we are old amd gray and less able to go see what's out there in the world. I struggle to find joy in that concept.  I don't want a 30 year mortgage to carry on my degenerating shoulders, I don't want a giant mansion with a maid and lawn service I have to pay thru the nose just to be able to handle chores. I am not even someone who want to be a farmer and run out to the countryside and buy land to live off of. I just want a healthy balance, to not be terribly deep in the mundane crap heap of corporate america. You have to tell me friend(I'm calling you that now since I have none irl), do you really want to slave away your whole life for what basically amounts to paying for your headstone while your rugrats fight over everything nice you ever got in life. Its hardly even worth having this life for your kids they usually just pawn off everything and hate each other in the truest way they can anyway. YmKelly and Joel do not want to share your beautiful cabin in alaska for a week together every year Carol! They'll either split times, sell, or one will have dibs and make the other hate them! No kumbaya singing tonight! I am not a rich person, I don't think I'll ever be and I'm pretty sure at least some of you out there must feel similarly about how disturbingly rigged life is. If you read this and figured out how to live a happy medium between bush child and corporate slave let me know.  I am planning my escape but I know its going to take a few years of hardcore saving and penny pinching. My ultimate goal is to try and get down to working part-time 20 or 30 hours one day. I want to be mortgage free and self sufficient as much as I can be. I realize its going to be impossible for me since I have fibromyalgia and other illnesses to be completely able to do it alone. But I am determined to try my best. If you are with me on this quest write to me sometime and let me know how it is going for you. I'd honestly love to know I'm not the only one trying.