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Fibromyalgia induced depression is a bitch...

I can't help but feel like the depression that comes along with fibromyalgia has to be one of the worst forms of depression there is. In fact, I think it deserves its own classification within the spectrum of depression. One does not escape the painful and cutting feeling that fibromyalgia gives you, and you wouldn't believe how easy doctor's buy into you faking you aren't depressed. It's super easy to get out of actually having to deal with it in an adult fashion and get the psychological help you really need. To be frank, I wish that they made you go to therapy as a mandatory part of your treatment. I wish they had specially trained therapists that specifically deal with fibromyalgia patients. If you're in the same boat as me, you already know what colors your crazy flag has, you've accepted that your off and you know exactly why you have the problems you have. I cannot be the only one who has developer an anxiety disorder, obsessive compulsive tendencie…

I can't believe I'm actually making progress...

Hi Stranger,

I am actually very surprised with myself, this last week I set a bunch of goals for myself to do some things that might make my life better. I wasn't so sure that I'd get to them since I'm very flakey with my resolve and I sure as hell didn't share my list with anyone I actually know. They just tend to be too motivated and stress me out when I tell them I have some ambition so its better not to let them know when I want to make a life change. But anyway, to my surprise I actually got off my ass and scheduled my dermatologist visit to remove some moles, gave my hair a trim AND I applied for some new jobs. I feel like I'm being productive at the moment which almost makes me happy-ish. Don't get me wrong though, I don't think this is the end all to my problems with life, just a surprisingly good start to some really important fixes I need to make.  My boss quit today too, so I guess I won't have a giant pain in my butt yelling at me for a sma…